I forgot what it felt like to feel normal

I had learned to live with my anxiety. It wasn’t the monster it once was, but it was there, never letting me relax completely. I was coping with it, functioning, at least from the outside. I thought maybe this was as good as it was going to get, which wasn’t so bad. Sure, it suckedContinue reading “I forgot what it felt like to feel normal”

When I Fell Apart

Just like anyone who’s ever lived, I’ve had my share of struggles. Most of mine, maybe all of mine, have fear at the root of them. It’s always been the thorn in my side and there have been periods of my life where fear and anxiety have lain dormant and other times where they’ve comeContinue reading “When I Fell Apart”

A Change is Coming

I met my husband when I was 12. We started dating when I was 17. I married him when I was 24. Our families are friends and we come from similar, almost identical, backgrounds of the same faith and values. We are financially stable and live in a house with plenty of rooms for anyContinue reading “A Change is Coming”

Miracles

2011. I had just gotten married and instead of newlywed bliss, I was more anxious than I had ever been in my life. I told myself it was just the transition that was causing these anxious feelings, these bizarre symptoms, these thoughts of hopelessness. I kept thinking that one day I would wake up andContinue reading “Miracles”

Holy Night

I don’t know why but I’ve never really listened to the lyrics of most Christmas songs. Sure, I play and sing them once a year, like everyone else, when I’m baking cookies or decorating my tree or wrapping gifts (although I am really particular about which Christmas songs I actually like). But, I’ve never paidContinue reading “Holy Night”

Light Breaks Through

I believe everyone struggles with something. It’s part of the human condition.  Fear just happens to be mine. It is my greatest struggle. Always has been.  I am someone who suffers from anxiety.  I am also someone who has tried to hide the fact that I struggle with anxiety. Most acquaintances don’t know this hasContinue reading “Light Breaks Through”

Hope Over Fear

“Hope. It is the only thing stronger than fear.” – President Snow, The Hunger Games I’m not sure I agree entirely with President Snow. Hope may not be the only thing stronger than fear, but it is a strong antidote to fear. A powerful tool. A weapon to wield against the fire breathing dragon thatContinue reading “Hope Over Fear”