Category Archives: Wisdom & Lessons Learned

I’d rather be fat than anxious

For as long as I can remember I’ve wanted to be thinner than I am. Even when I was “thin” in the technical sense, I wanted to be thinner. The number on the scale matters to me more than it should and it always has. I’ve also always loved food. I find immense joy whenContinue reading “I’d rather be fat than anxious”

Always Something

I recently watched the series, Beef, on Netflix. If I had to categorize it I’d say it’s a dark comedy/dramedy. There are some silly moments, some violent moments, some ridiculous moments, and some heartfelt moments. It’s a story about two people involved in a “road rage” incident that becomes the catalyst to an unraveling ofContinue reading “Always Something”

Guarded Vulnerability

I hear it over and over again. Be vulnerable. Be real. Be authentic. Vulnerability is praised while being guarded and reserved is not. It was my biggest struggle – vulnerability. I didn’t want anyone to know I was suffering from anxiety, and not just anxiety, but a full blown, debilitating, what often felt bizarre, anxietyContinue reading “Guarded Vulnerability”

The Good Fruit

Usually, anxiety isn’t thought of as a positive thing. Who wants to feel anxious? It typically only breeds more anxiety, self-consciousness, self-centered-ness, avoidance, irritability, frustration, impatience, and depression. I’m speaking from experience and the list could go on. But, does anxiety ever produce good stuff? I think, maybe so. I hated struggling with an anxietyContinue reading “The Good Fruit”

I feel…weird

I remember it. I was taking a test and all of a sudden the room just felt too quiet and my thoughts sounded too loud and I felt like my brain was shouting at me, sort of. I remember it. I was talking on the phone and all of a sudden the conversation sounded moreContinue reading “I feel…weird”

Choose Your Hard

We all know someone who thinks they have it worse than everyone else. The complainer. Maybe it’s a friend of ours, or a coworker, or a relative, or (yikes) maybe it’s us. The negative Nancy, the person who always has an ache or a pain to whine about, the person who never sees the glassContinue reading “Choose Your Hard”

Is it my personality or my anxiety?

It’s a Friday night in 2004. I’m a junior in high school and all my friends are heading to the football game. They’re pumped, all chattering excitedly about the boys they like, the cute football players, the events of the school week. I smile and mirror their excitement but nobody knows I’m pretending. I’d ratherContinue reading “Is it my personality or my anxiety?”

The Best Things are the Hard Things

The best things are the hard things…Or at least they usually are and they most definitely are when it comes to motherhood. Y’all, motherhood is Hard. In bold. With a capital H. There have been moments where I’ve thought, guiltily I might add, “Why/How do people do this?” And then of course my little girlContinue reading “The Best Things are the Hard Things”

When I Fell Apart

Just like anyone who’s ever lived, I’ve had my share of struggles. Most of mine, maybe all of mine, have fear at the root of them. It’s always been the thorn in my side and there have been periods of my life where fear and anxiety have lain dormant and other times where they’ve comeContinue reading “When I Fell Apart”